As much as we hope things change as we get older, lately I find myself doing the same things I did 10 years ago when I had my first boyfriend, if you want to call it that.
Just the other day I found myself in an awkward, uncomfortable situation with a grown man I thought I was developing something with months ago. And our interaction took me back to the high school lunch line where I would ignore my then boyfriend while standing right next to him.
I would like to think that with every situation, disappointment, encounter, I am getting closer to my partner, but lately I struggle to be optimistic.
All I know is that 2014 and my 25th year has been simply wonderful. God has moved every obstacle, guided my feet and protected my heart every step of the way. If you would've asked my fifteen year old self where I would be on this day. I would've said married, or planning a wedding, preparing to share my life with my college sweetheart. College awarded me a ton but no sweethearts. Life isn't how I would've imagined it but it is exactly how it's supposed to me.
Frankly if it means I have to go back 10 years emotionally and maturity to have peace, happiness and sanity, I think I'll just curl up with my dog and degrees for the near future. Interestingly enough I now have more degrees than meaningful romantic relationships under my belt.
Happy Half Birthday to me!
JG